Waiting.

Waiting at Lowes for them to bring my 8 boxes of wood flooring....waiting and waiting and waiting.   Something must be wrong with me because I'm not being impatient,  not filled with anxiety,  just waiting and chatting with strangers.  This wonderful lady was telling me about her converse, how much she loves them, how comfortable they are.  She approached me, it's easy to do without my resting bitch face.  I smile at people as they walk in the door, smile as they walk out,even explained to one man how to get out the entrance by opening the doors.  I'm waiting, the sweet converse lady walked past again, surprised I am still waiting, asked what I was waiting for, then asked who was putting in the new floor.  I proudly stated that I am!   I'm waiting,  I'm being still and it feels amazing.  It seems everyone walking past was looking at me, I used to think "oh no, do I have something in my teeth" or "I must look really bad, people are looking". Today I know why they are looking, I look happy.  I look at peace, I look confident and for the first time, I really am.   Please, come talk to me, if you don't, I might just approach you.  I no longer have to hide, you'll see me for who I am and who I am is God's girl, one amazing Terri Lynne!!!

Side note, faced a fear today...THE LIBRARY!!   What a peaceful time I had, I even signed up for another day of volunteering there.  Yeah, I'm rocking this positive attitude and life.   Nothing is going to stop me now.