Guilt

This morning I went for my 3 mile wog, after the first mile, I turned off my music, started walking and just listened.  I asked God to talk to me, to tell me what I need to know.   I wanted specific answers but what I got was the same that I've been getting for the past however many weeks.  Wait.   Just be.  Be still.  Trust.   But I also got this.....guilt.  

Guilt!!! Damn that word.   Damn that feeling and damn that I still must be carrying it.  

Why do I feel guilty?  Why do you feel guilty?   Many reasons, from past mistakes, harm we've caused others, the guilt of moving on, to the guilt of finding happiness.  All we can do with this is ask for forgiveness, realize we are human and we make mistakes.  Knowing that moving on isn't forgetting or putting someone in a drawer, it's healthy and deserved.  Coming to terms with being happy when someone else isn't, is ok.  We cannot live our lives for anyone except ourselves.  We are allowed to be happy, to move forward in life, to live, love and honor ourself by being happy.   

I carry guilt and I need to release it.  It's ok that I am moving forward because moving forward is the only place to go.    Where I want to be , there is no room for guilt.  

Don't allow guilt to hold you back from your purpose,  from your life, from what is meant to be.  Those who love us, those who were in our lives, those who matter want what is best for us, they wouldn't want to be the reason we have stopped living and loving.