Fear, it's a scary thing
As we all know, when you have a fever, bad dreams are almost aways a given. They never seem to make sense, at least to me. Fragmented pieces of strange, never seen before "mind movies" that wake you, shaking and scared to close your eyes again. You finally talk yourself down from the ledge, realizing it was just a bad dream. No, there isn't something in your room ready to harm you, you really didn't have to fight them off as you try your hardest to scream and wake yourself by making noises. It's all in your mind.
Fear is the egos way of surviving, a way to keep you from your life's purpose. When your mind starts yapping about the "what if" and the "how come", the "what now" and the "what about the future" , you have to pause, take deep breaths and remember, they are only thoughts, they are not the truth. It's your ego trying to make you fearful so you can continue living in the state of confusion and chaos, a place where the ego thrives.
Yesterday, fear showed it's ugly head, too tired and achy to think clearly, I allowed it to creep in and take residents for a short while. Instead of pausing and being rational, I went to the negative, a place I try so very hard not to be in, it has become uncomfortable and forgein. I read today that freedom from fear is a lifetime undertaking, I couldn't agree more. It's a daily fight, one that hopefully will become easier as we heal and grow into the new person we are striving to become.
When starting to feel the anxiety of fear coming on (and yes, you actually do feel it in your body) try whatever techniques work for you. Breathing slowly, counting, imagery, repeating your mantra or eveing just humming. Whatever it takes for you to calm yourself and focus on what is real and what is the truth. Trust yourself to know the difference and don't allow fear to take your moment.
Fear is the egos way of surviving, a way to keep you from your life's purpose. When your mind starts yapping about the "what if" and the "how come", the "what now" and the "what about the future" , you have to pause, take deep breaths and remember, they are only thoughts, they are not the truth. It's your ego trying to make you fearful so you can continue living in the state of confusion and chaos, a place where the ego thrives.
Yesterday, fear showed it's ugly head, too tired and achy to think clearly, I allowed it to creep in and take residents for a short while. Instead of pausing and being rational, I went to the negative, a place I try so very hard not to be in, it has become uncomfortable and forgein. I read today that freedom from fear is a lifetime undertaking, I couldn't agree more. It's a daily fight, one that hopefully will become easier as we heal and grow into the new person we are striving to become.
When starting to feel the anxiety of fear coming on (and yes, you actually do feel it in your body) try whatever techniques work for you. Breathing slowly, counting, imagery, repeating your mantra or eveing just humming. Whatever it takes for you to calm yourself and focus on what is real and what is the truth. Trust yourself to know the difference and don't allow fear to take your moment.
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