What I am not will no longer define me
I am not a victim. I am not what has happened to me in my past. I am not what life has brought my way. I am me. I am a fighter, one who doesn't give up, one who believes in love and life. One who God has chosen to live and love as Terri Lynne. God has a purpose for all that I've lived through, He has a direction for my life and I have to follow it.
Meditating and reading this morning, I realized that I am holding onto hurt and anger from my past. I am comfortable in my role as victim and have allowed that to define my actions. I must let go for my own happiness and growth. I must forgive those who have hurt me and ask for forgiveness. I must ask for forgiveness for holding on for so long to the pain and anger. I must ask for forgiveness for blaming them for my actions and lack of self worth. I have been holding on to this pain because it was my safety net, my protection, my identity. No one else saw this but I knew it and I allowed it to live in me. I must forgive for my own peace and allow myself to be free.
I've come to a point in this journey that I have to change the way I think I see myself. I have relied on others in one way or another to hold in front of me a reflection of what they see in me. I have wanted to see myself through eyes of others in hopes of seeing something worthy. I am beginning to realize that what they saw was a hope deep inside of me, a desire to feel copacetic. I no longer need anyone to show me who I am, I am finding it day by day, prayer by prayer. I was made worthy in my mother's womb and I have dishonored God by not just accepting who He chose for me to be.
God, forgive me for not seeing whose I really am. I am your daughter, a child of the King and I will straighten my crown and be proud of who I am. What I am not will no longer define me for I am who I know I am.
Meditating and reading this morning, I realized that I am holding onto hurt and anger from my past. I am comfortable in my role as victim and have allowed that to define my actions. I must let go for my own happiness and growth. I must forgive those who have hurt me and ask for forgiveness. I must ask for forgiveness for holding on for so long to the pain and anger. I must ask for forgiveness for blaming them for my actions and lack of self worth. I have been holding on to this pain because it was my safety net, my protection, my identity. No one else saw this but I knew it and I allowed it to live in me. I must forgive for my own peace and allow myself to be free.
I've come to a point in this journey that I have to change the way I think I see myself. I have relied on others in one way or another to hold in front of me a reflection of what they see in me. I have wanted to see myself through eyes of others in hopes of seeing something worthy. I am beginning to realize that what they saw was a hope deep inside of me, a desire to feel copacetic. I no longer need anyone to show me who I am, I am finding it day by day, prayer by prayer. I was made worthy in my mother's womb and I have dishonored God by not just accepting who He chose for me to be.
God, forgive me for not seeing whose I really am. I am your daughter, a child of the King and I will straighten my crown and be proud of who I am. What I am not will no longer define me for I am who I know I am.
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