Learning self care
I struggle with something that I think comes so easy for others, something that I think should be natural and yet maybe we all struggle with it and no one ever talks about it. To me, it seems like it should honestly be a no brainer, simple and clear, but it's buried deep in the fog and I am really finding it difficult to figure out. The issue is how to take care of me. How to understand and take the action needed to move myself forward in a positive and healthy way.
For people who are co-dependent, the struggle is real. We have never had the ability to tend to ourselves or even the knowledge of how to do so. It's a mental and emotional block that keeps us from allowing us to care for ourselves and others in a balanced healthy way.
I am slowly learning (sloth paced) how to not be co-dependent for approval and acceptance. As I write this, I still crave the acknowledgement of others to feel ok about myself, I am far from healthy in this manner and will wake every day with this "demon" that I must battle. The fact that I can acknowledge this and have a desire to become healthy, to me, is huge.
So, how do I learn to look after my own emotional and mental well being? That my friend is the million dollar question that I am searching for. I want to die to myself and begin again, rid myself of old pain and habit so I can start fresh and be free. This will take time and patience with myself, patience from others. I will make steps forwards and backwards as I navigate my path. I will pray, seek God's direction, ask the universe to guide me. I will read, research, study and fill my head with knowledge and pray that every day I become who I am meant to be and use the tools that I find.
Yesterday I sent the picture below to someone, it said "sending", I deleted it and I was glad they didn't receive it, feeling like I had been saying I wanted them to accept me. I understand that I am the one who needs to find me and completely accept me. Yes, I want them to also but that isn't my choice, it's out of my control and I need to accept them completely for their decision.
I want to be confident, strong, acceptable to myself and love myself. I am on the right path, I just need to be patient with this journey, with myself.
For people who are co-dependent, the struggle is real. We have never had the ability to tend to ourselves or even the knowledge of how to do so. It's a mental and emotional block that keeps us from allowing us to care for ourselves and others in a balanced healthy way.
I am slowly learning (sloth paced) how to not be co-dependent for approval and acceptance. As I write this, I still crave the acknowledgement of others to feel ok about myself, I am far from healthy in this manner and will wake every day with this "demon" that I must battle. The fact that I can acknowledge this and have a desire to become healthy, to me, is huge.
So, how do I learn to look after my own emotional and mental well being? That my friend is the million dollar question that I am searching for. I want to die to myself and begin again, rid myself of old pain and habit so I can start fresh and be free. This will take time and patience with myself, patience from others. I will make steps forwards and backwards as I navigate my path. I will pray, seek God's direction, ask the universe to guide me. I will read, research, study and fill my head with knowledge and pray that every day I become who I am meant to be and use the tools that I find.
Yesterday I sent the picture below to someone, it said "sending", I deleted it and I was glad they didn't receive it, feeling like I had been saying I wanted them to accept me. I understand that I am the one who needs to find me and completely accept me. Yes, I want them to also but that isn't my choice, it's out of my control and I need to accept them completely for their decision.
I want to be confident, strong, acceptable to myself and love myself. I am on the right path, I just need to be patient with this journey, with myself.
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