Sleeping
I've never been a napper, I considered it a waste of time. My ex used to call me an anti-naptite (his little twist on Seinfeld, gotta love Larry David). I would get very irritated with the ex because he loved naps. He would nap all of the time, especially when the kids were little and they weren't napping.....he is still a napper. I just woke from my own nap, something that seems to happen more often than not. When my kids aren't here, napping is my favorite.
I don't sleep well at night, even when I don't nap, I fall asleep easily, it's staying asleep thay hasn't happened in awhile. I have help, I take something every night, hoping and praying to stay asleep. If I wake, it takes hours to go find Mr Sandman again, if at all.
I've decided to try this week to sleep without any synthetic aide, to fall asleep and stay asleep using meditation and yoga. I want to get my body and mind in sync, in tune with each other so that hopefully, I can get the rest of me in order.
I am exhausted. Mentally, emotionally but mostly physically . Maybe that's why my emotions are so unstable, volatile as someone likes to say, which makes me even more exhausted. When I am ok one day, crying uncontrollable the next, it hurts the ones I love and myself. I need to become stable, I need to find a peace that I am so longing for.
I'm giving this all to God, my sleep, my emotions, my brokenness. I cannot lose the hope, the faith and the promise that GOD gave to me, I cannot lose myself and my strength that I have gained over the past 7 months. I have to trust that God has this and I must trust His timing.
I don't sleep well at night, even when I don't nap, I fall asleep easily, it's staying asleep thay hasn't happened in awhile. I have help, I take something every night, hoping and praying to stay asleep. If I wake, it takes hours to go find Mr Sandman again, if at all.
I've decided to try this week to sleep without any synthetic aide, to fall asleep and stay asleep using meditation and yoga. I want to get my body and mind in sync, in tune with each other so that hopefully, I can get the rest of me in order.
I am exhausted. Mentally, emotionally but mostly physically . Maybe that's why my emotions are so unstable, volatile as someone likes to say, which makes me even more exhausted. When I am ok one day, crying uncontrollable the next, it hurts the ones I love and myself. I need to become stable, I need to find a peace that I am so longing for.
I'm giving this all to God, my sleep, my emotions, my brokenness. I cannot lose the hope, the faith and the promise that GOD gave to me, I cannot lose myself and my strength that I have gained over the past 7 months. I have to trust that God has this and I must trust His timing.
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