Trust

There is a song called Oceans by Hillsong, one of the verses says "Spirit lead where my trust is without borders", I can't really tell you how the rest of the song goes, that is all I needed to hear.    I head this back in Sept when I was in the beginnings of my journey to find love for myself.   I had trust issues, BIG trust issues, so this idea of trusting without borders seemed like an unattainable goal......but a girl can always dream and that's where it begins.

I have fought tooth and nail to get to this place, a place of trusting and of believing.   I had to trust and believe in myself that I was strong enough to stay on the path and follow what I felt was God leading me.  I then had to trust others, that when they say "I love you", it's real and from the heart.   I had to be willing to let my wall come down so I was exposed and vulnerable, a huge act of faith.    A feat that I accomplished.  My walls came down, I trusted myself and others, I allowed myself to accept love and to give love.   My trust had no borders.

I realized today that I am more free than I have ever been.   I trust and have faith, not only in God and the universe but in myself and in others.   I trust my dreams and my goals.  I trust God's promise and will. I trust that my heart is big enough to love someone's past as much as I love their present.  It's so liberating to trust, to believe and have faith.

this sits on my fireplace as a reminder that I am free to trust without borders