Cleaning out negative things
I woke this morning thinking it was Friday, in a quick flash, I was afraid the boys were going to be late. To my happy surprise, I recalled it was Saturday and the boys are at their Dads. Woo-hoo, that means some me time. Negativity 0- Positivity 1
I made my coffee, fed the felines and puppy, crawled back into bed with my books and my mug of caffeine. I prayed, as I try to do every morning, that God would show me how to go about this day with grace and acceptance. I dug into to my reading and suddenly had the HUGE pull to talk to some girls friends about what I feel my next step in life might possibly be. The one I reached out to solo seemed as excited as I was. She said she'd pray about it and let me know. I reached out to someone else telling them that I'd like for them to invest in this idea. He simply replied "ok". Alrighty then, now it's on me and I am charged!!! Negative self doubt 0 -positive self assurance 1
I continued my "starting today" ritual and turned off everything in my house, sat crossed legged, took a deep breath and tried to get myself into the meditation mode. Even though I was pumped and excited that my idea and plan is perhaps underway, I still had some negative thoughts rolling around in this thick skull. Ugh!!! Ok, focus damnit, breathe and exhale, focus and allow your mind to drift. Sweet, it's working. Aww, negativity 0, meditative positive thoughts 1.
What's next? The garage, oy, that'll take all day. Why shower, it's going to be a dirty job and it's 60+ out so I might even sweat. I get dressed, put on my running shoes (they are comfy) and suddenly decide, I'm taking advantage of this weather. I'm going to continue to clean out these negative thoughts by doing my 3 miles route. So off I go, smile on my face, singing with Spotify and enjoying this really dumb spring weather in Feb. Negative winter weather 0- God's gift of a positively beautiful day 1.
My walk went well, foot felt ok, not running but not cusing in pain either!! Some negative thoughts came into my head as I walked past a house, I allowed myself to make up a story that is unbelievably not even close to the truth so I had to pull my head out of my ego ass and ask what the truth was....yeah, that's right, truth is that would never happen, I know better than that. Negative rude thoughts about someone 0- positive sweet thoughts 1.
Now I'm taking a break from this garage, I might actually be able to get a car into this 3 car gargae this weekend!!! Im also getting hungry which is a nice feeling to finally have after 3 weeks. I love knowing that I have the power over negativity in my life, all I have to do is be willing to clean it all out and trust God.
I made my coffee, fed the felines and puppy, crawled back into bed with my books and my mug of caffeine. I prayed, as I try to do every morning, that God would show me how to go about this day with grace and acceptance. I dug into to my reading and suddenly had the HUGE pull to talk to some girls friends about what I feel my next step in life might possibly be. The one I reached out to solo seemed as excited as I was. She said she'd pray about it and let me know. I reached out to someone else telling them that I'd like for them to invest in this idea. He simply replied "ok". Alrighty then, now it's on me and I am charged!!! Negative self doubt 0 -positive self assurance 1
I continued my "starting today" ritual and turned off everything in my house, sat crossed legged, took a deep breath and tried to get myself into the meditation mode. Even though I was pumped and excited that my idea and plan is perhaps underway, I still had some negative thoughts rolling around in this thick skull. Ugh!!! Ok, focus damnit, breathe and exhale, focus and allow your mind to drift. Sweet, it's working. Aww, negativity 0, meditative positive thoughts 1.
What's next? The garage, oy, that'll take all day. Why shower, it's going to be a dirty job and it's 60+ out so I might even sweat. I get dressed, put on my running shoes (they are comfy) and suddenly decide, I'm taking advantage of this weather. I'm going to continue to clean out these negative thoughts by doing my 3 miles route. So off I go, smile on my face, singing with Spotify and enjoying this really dumb spring weather in Feb. Negative winter weather 0- God's gift of a positively beautiful day 1.
My walk went well, foot felt ok, not running but not cusing in pain either!! Some negative thoughts came into my head as I walked past a house, I allowed myself to make up a story that is unbelievably not even close to the truth so I had to pull my head out of my ego ass and ask what the truth was....yeah, that's right, truth is that would never happen, I know better than that. Negative rude thoughts about someone 0- positive sweet thoughts 1.
Now I'm taking a break from this garage, I might actually be able to get a car into this 3 car gargae this weekend!!! Im also getting hungry which is a nice feeling to finally have after 3 weeks. I love knowing that I have the power over negativity in my life, all I have to do is be willing to clean it all out and trust God.
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