Put your oxygen mask on first
Trying to be in control of every aspect of our lives becomes hard because we get in our own way. We are human, we have emotions and feelings, hurts and sorrows, we try to be flexible and sometimes we break. Yesterday, I broke.
I tried to be strong, I tried to be ok and I just wasn't. I've been trying to put on a brave face, when inside I'm a scared little girl who lost her best friend and just couldn't take the pain. I had a panic attack. I crawled into my closet and broke down. I felt it coming on so I called a dear friend who knows how to deal with this and she was able to calm me down with the tapping technique. I hadn't had an attack in several years, I thought they passed when Perry did.
I realized that I have to take care of me, I have to let go of the worry and fear. I have to be ok with my situation and accept life as it is. I cannot be in control, I have to let go and let God/universe take care of the things I can't. I'm ok with this, I'm ok taking life one day at a time because frankly, when I start to worry, I lose my shit.
I will start meditating daily again, start yoga and stick with it. I will spend time making sure I am in balance because if I'm off, I'm not able to be strong for anyone else. Taking care of yourself is such an important thing, it's like when you're on an airplane and they tell you to put your oxygen mask on first and then help those around you.
I have 4 kids to be strong for, my parents, siblings, friends and someone I love. I have to be strong for me, they have to be strong for themselves, only then can we be strong each other.
I tried to be strong, I tried to be ok and I just wasn't. I've been trying to put on a brave face, when inside I'm a scared little girl who lost her best friend and just couldn't take the pain. I had a panic attack. I crawled into my closet and broke down. I felt it coming on so I called a dear friend who knows how to deal with this and she was able to calm me down with the tapping technique. I hadn't had an attack in several years, I thought they passed when Perry did.
I realized that I have to take care of me, I have to let go of the worry and fear. I have to be ok with my situation and accept life as it is. I cannot be in control, I have to let go and let God/universe take care of the things I can't. I'm ok with this, I'm ok taking life one day at a time because frankly, when I start to worry, I lose my shit.
I will start meditating daily again, start yoga and stick with it. I will spend time making sure I am in balance because if I'm off, I'm not able to be strong for anyone else. Taking care of yourself is such an important thing, it's like when you're on an airplane and they tell you to put your oxygen mask on first and then help those around you.
I have 4 kids to be strong for, my parents, siblings, friends and someone I love. I have to be strong for me, they have to be strong for themselves, only then can we be strong each other.
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