Pure love

I sat on the curb and stared into the woods and prayed.   I know that I have to hold onto  to the promise that God put in my heart yet I have to let go of the one I love.  

I've never loved anyone the way that I love J.   He is everything I ever wanted in a love, a man, a best friend and a parent figure for my kids.   His love and compassion is that of a pure heart.   His humor and spirit had me captivated long before I realized and his kiss was the one my heart had searched for for years.  

I know that he loves me, he loves me more than anyone ever has but that isn't why I love him.  The love I feel is pure, it's true and it's unconditional.   That is why I must let go.   He needs this time for himself and my needs and wants are selfish.   I have to prove my love is real and let go.  We will be ok, I know we will be together in the end.   I feel it.  For now, I will be his friend and let time heal us both.