Strength come from......

Strength comes from letting go.   Strength comes from forgiveness.   Strength comes from knowing what you deserve and knowing what you want.  Strength comes from inside but not until you decide that you are worth it.

Yesterday I spent the afternoon with an old boyfriend who had hurt me, used me and made me feel less than.  ( He came to pick up his riding lawnmower that had been sitting in my garage for 3 1/2 years.)   I will admit by the time he left early yesterday evening, I was exhausted.   It took strength to be around him, it took forgiveness, it took letting go of anger, it took me knowing that I was worth more than he ever saw.  

I cried for a long time after he left,  I cried because I saw how poorly he treated me and it reflects how poorly I thought of myself.   I'm glad I spent time with him, 1) got that damn lawnmower that I hated, out of my gargae B) I realized how far I actually have come.   I'm not sure he was fond of the new stronger me, which is totally ok by me, I don't need him to like me.   I like me and I realized just how much yesterday.

I was with this guy for almost 3 years, I was too afraid to be alone.   Now, I would rather be alone the rest of my life than be with someone who doesn't see my worth.   I am strong, my strength comes from every thing I have gone through and I am grateful for all of it, the good and the bad.