Hormones....grrrrugh!!!!
Being a girl sucks. Sure, there is beauty and awe in being a woman, we, if we're fortunate enough, can grow another human inside of us, give birth to a life, love and protect this creature that God gave to us. After that, it just sucks. We have hormones from age 10 until we die that cause us to become a crazed, emotional, scary hot mess. We cry for no reason, want to bite the heads off of people one minute and hug them the next. We get sad and down, not knowing why, sometimes not caring why. We get headaches, body aches and we want to curse every man in sight, then we are fine. Our face breaks out, we become bloated and mother nature giggles as we look in the mirror and cry because at 46, we shouldn't have to coat pimple cream on our faces before bed.
We have maybe 12-14 days a month where we feel normal, human even. The other days, we feel like Sybil, never knowing which personality will emerge at any given point.
Yesterday, I cried at least 6 or 7 times before going to see my therapist, my face was flooding. I contributed it to the recent heart ache, feeling down and sad, allowing myself, as Sally put it, to go down that rabbit hole. My trust I have had seemed to be gone, my faith, lacking and my hope was no where to be found. Life seemed gray. The weather had changed , it went from 73° and sunny to 30° and snowy within 24 hours, that alone is enough to send someone mad. But I knew I was just morning the loss of someone. Or was I?
The more I talked, it seemed clear to Sally that there was more to the story, I had been so confident and trusting of myself just days before, something else was up. Then it hit us, HORMONES!! Ugh, of course, it's PMS week. I allowed my feelings to be contributed to J when really, it was just the rise and fall of progesterone. Grrrrugh, Damn female body!!!!
It was nuts, after the realization of crabbiness due to menses, I felt relieved. Ladies, keep yourself in check, don't allow your mind to go down the rabbit hole when in reality, it's just nature doing what it does. Remind yourself to keep it real, cry, be sad, be pissy, be whatever you feel and let it go. Don't hold on to it, it'll be back next month anyway.
We have maybe 12-14 days a month where we feel normal, human even. The other days, we feel like Sybil, never knowing which personality will emerge at any given point.
Yesterday, I cried at least 6 or 7 times before going to see my therapist, my face was flooding. I contributed it to the recent heart ache, feeling down and sad, allowing myself, as Sally put it, to go down that rabbit hole. My trust I have had seemed to be gone, my faith, lacking and my hope was no where to be found. Life seemed gray. The weather had changed , it went from 73° and sunny to 30° and snowy within 24 hours, that alone is enough to send someone mad. But I knew I was just morning the loss of someone. Or was I?
The more I talked, it seemed clear to Sally that there was more to the story, I had been so confident and trusting of myself just days before, something else was up. Then it hit us, HORMONES!! Ugh, of course, it's PMS week. I allowed my feelings to be contributed to J when really, it was just the rise and fall of progesterone. Grrrrugh, Damn female body!!!!
It was nuts, after the realization of crabbiness due to menses, I felt relieved. Ladies, keep yourself in check, don't allow your mind to go down the rabbit hole when in reality, it's just nature doing what it does. Remind yourself to keep it real, cry, be sad, be pissy, be whatever you feel and let it go. Don't hold on to it, it'll be back next month anyway.
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