God
I try to be a person who is good, kind, loving, fair and caring. I try to not push my spiritual beliefs upon anyone, not wanting to be known as that Christian girl. Growing up upc had a stigma attached to it, I was done being a "Bible thumper", a "holy roller" and a Jesus freak.
When asked as an adult my beliefs on God, I gave a typical generic answer, hoping that would impede any further questions. I acted as though I wasn't interested, I just didn't care.
Truth is, I honestly didn't know what I believed. The God I grew up hearing about was a god of fear and punishment, one that I would never be good enough for. Begging for forgiveness at every service, terrified of failing. This was the god of my childhood, a god that I had always questioned was real. He was like the evil step mother in all of Disney's movies, a narcissist in the worst way.
It hasn't been until the past few years that I've learned who my God is. A God of compassion, of love, of trust and forgiveness. He is understanding and caring, a healer and a miracle worker.
The God I have found guides me and directs me when I ask, I just have to be open to listen.
I've learned over the past 2 years that my God wants what's best for me, and as long as I ask in faithful prayer, God will hear.
Today I'm not thumping my Bible or being a Jesus freak, I'm sharing that I have faith in God again and without that, I wouldn't be here today.
When asked as an adult my beliefs on God, I gave a typical generic answer, hoping that would impede any further questions. I acted as though I wasn't interested, I just didn't care.
Truth is, I honestly didn't know what I believed. The God I grew up hearing about was a god of fear and punishment, one that I would never be good enough for. Begging for forgiveness at every service, terrified of failing. This was the god of my childhood, a god that I had always questioned was real. He was like the evil step mother in all of Disney's movies, a narcissist in the worst way.
It hasn't been until the past few years that I've learned who my God is. A God of compassion, of love, of trust and forgiveness. He is understanding and caring, a healer and a miracle worker.
The God I have found guides me and directs me when I ask, I just have to be open to listen.
I've learned over the past 2 years that my God wants what's best for me, and as long as I ask in faithful prayer, God will hear.
Today I'm not thumping my Bible or being a Jesus freak, I'm sharing that I have faith in God again and without that, I wouldn't be here today.
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