Where are you God

It feels as though God has left me on the side of the road in a desert without any directions.   I am so lost.   There is no one around.   Why can't I be someone to somebody.   Why do I feel like I will never be ok.    My heart is crushed and I can't figure out what the real truth is.    I need God to show himself, I need to see he is real and I wasn't wrong.   Why did I hear a promise just to hurt more, I just wanted to be the one