Sleeping through the night
Waking up after sleeping solid through the night, what a great feeling. For the past 4 years, I have had to take meds of some sort to stay asleep, falling asleep has never been a problem. Sunday night, I decided enough, I need to retrain my body to sleep without help from the pharmaceutical world. I have almost conquered all of my other health issues and this is just another stepping stone of becoming free of my old self.
Age has something to do with it, hormones starting to change, I'll be the first woman in the last 3 generations on my maternal side to go through menopause naturally. Everyone before me has had early hysterectomies or some other forms of health/ body issues that made a normal change, not normal.
My type 2 has something to do with it, since no longer taking meds, if I am not carefully watching my carb intake, have something with sugar, or even not eat enough throughout the day, my sleep is effected.
The acupuncturist told me this week that my liver and heart both can affect my sleep, or lack of. Stress can and does have a huge impact on sleep, she (the acupuncturist) is working on these issues with me along with my migraines. (She's my new BFF 😃)
When we decide to take charge of our bodies, our minds, our souls, we take charge of our lives. We, are the only ones who are in the position, no one can change for us, no one can make us become our goal. It is up to us, each individual to make the change that we, ourselves, need for us. We cannot really change for someone else, make our lives what they think we need to be, that is a bandaid, a superficial fix, temporary. If change is needed or desired, do it for you and for you alone, that is the only way it will become permanent.
Throughout my 46 years, I have been many people, the well behaved child who was scared of eternal damnation, the older teen afraid of breaking rules, the classic housewife trying to prove I was worthy, the Mom who could do it all and fit into the society that I never felt comfortable with. I dressed the part, acted the part, pretended to enjoy the part and lost myself so deeply into the lie of my life. No more, no more being afraid of those who don't think I'm enough, they will be the one missing out because the woman I am becoming is learning to sleep at night, restfully, peacefully and waking proud to be here where I am today.
Age has something to do with it, hormones starting to change, I'll be the first woman in the last 3 generations on my maternal side to go through menopause naturally. Everyone before me has had early hysterectomies or some other forms of health/ body issues that made a normal change, not normal.
My type 2 has something to do with it, since no longer taking meds, if I am not carefully watching my carb intake, have something with sugar, or even not eat enough throughout the day, my sleep is effected.
The acupuncturist told me this week that my liver and heart both can affect my sleep, or lack of. Stress can and does have a huge impact on sleep, she (the acupuncturist) is working on these issues with me along with my migraines. (She's my new BFF 😃)
When we decide to take charge of our bodies, our minds, our souls, we take charge of our lives. We, are the only ones who are in the position, no one can change for us, no one can make us become our goal. It is up to us, each individual to make the change that we, ourselves, need for us. We cannot really change for someone else, make our lives what they think we need to be, that is a bandaid, a superficial fix, temporary. If change is needed or desired, do it for you and for you alone, that is the only way it will become permanent.
Throughout my 46 years, I have been many people, the well behaved child who was scared of eternal damnation, the older teen afraid of breaking rules, the classic housewife trying to prove I was worthy, the Mom who could do it all and fit into the society that I never felt comfortable with. I dressed the part, acted the part, pretended to enjoy the part and lost myself so deeply into the lie of my life. No more, no more being afraid of those who don't think I'm enough, they will be the one missing out because the woman I am becoming is learning to sleep at night, restfully, peacefully and waking proud to be here where I am today.
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