Negativity

I was told yesterday that for the most part, everyone reverts backwards when around family, old habits come creeping back in, no matter how strong we are.   I see that happening, over the past week and a half, I have caught myself thinking more negatively than in the previous weeks.    I'm not really sure what it is, but I don't like it yet I can't beat myself up for it either.  I am aware of the behavior and need to focus on being more positive and less skeptical.    


We all have setbacks,  some of us more than others, but it's all part of becoming who we are meant to be.   Without it, how would we know what to change or adjust in ourselves.   None of us are perfect, we all have our own personal journey that must be taken, we all have things holding us back from our true being.  Don't let  small everyday obstacles keep you from moving forward and living today in a positive joyful state.

Yesterday I had a setback,  I allowed something from my childhood to push me to become defensive and negative.   It has always been a trigger for me, yet I've laughed it off without much care the past few years, yesterday however I allowed what should've been a good laugh to be a sword in my side.  I allowed it to sting and it wasn't meant to be anything other than fun teasing.   I reverted backwards and I regret it.  

Today is a new day, I will learn from yesterday and take care not to allow negative and defensive behavior to slide in.   I will be mindful of myself and others and see today as new moments to live life with a smile.