Will there always be bumps in the road?
For the first time in my life, I am emotionally and mentally fit, I have a newfound love for myself and life. I know my worth and know what I want and deserve in this life. So why is it that it seems like bumps keep showing up? Why is it that my body has decided to rebel against me? Why does what I really want seem to be just out of reach?
I told someone the other day that I feel like a car whose warrenty just expired....my body is falling apart and my insurance sucks! My foot hurts, my shoulder is not cooperating, my insides hate me, this menopausal thing has me screwed up, yet I just have to keep moving on!!
I was told long ago that someone just wanted easy, I wasn't easy and he just wanted easy. Finally, I'm in that easy place, I am accepting where I am in life, accepting me, accepting what is and yet nothing is falling into place, it isn't easy.
But, it's ok.....it is what it is. I have waited my whole life for this, I have wanted to be emotioanlly available and mentally secure in myself, I've wanted that magic and love that so many have had. I deserve to be someone's world and I am finally ready to accept it, so, now I just have to wait. It all goes back to "be still", to wait and be patient, to have empathy and love, things I have learned over the past 5 months.
One of my favorite things to say to others is "Why rush what you want to last forever, if it's meant to be, it will be so take your time." Way easier to say than to do yet, if it is meant to be, it will be and I truly believe it is. I will keep moving forward in my own journey, slow down for the bumps and keep holding onto hope and faith (and get better insurance).
I told someone the other day that I feel like a car whose warrenty just expired....my body is falling apart and my insurance sucks! My foot hurts, my shoulder is not cooperating, my insides hate me, this menopausal thing has me screwed up, yet I just have to keep moving on!!
I was told long ago that someone just wanted easy, I wasn't easy and he just wanted easy. Finally, I'm in that easy place, I am accepting where I am in life, accepting me, accepting what is and yet nothing is falling into place, it isn't easy.
But, it's ok.....it is what it is. I have waited my whole life for this, I have wanted to be emotioanlly available and mentally secure in myself, I've wanted that magic and love that so many have had. I deserve to be someone's world and I am finally ready to accept it, so, now I just have to wait. It all goes back to "be still", to wait and be patient, to have empathy and love, things I have learned over the past 5 months.
One of my favorite things to say to others is "Why rush what you want to last forever, if it's meant to be, it will be so take your time." Way easier to say than to do yet, if it is meant to be, it will be and I truly believe it is. I will keep moving forward in my own journey, slow down for the bumps and keep holding onto hope and faith (and get better insurance).
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