What Doesn't Kill You
The old saying is true, "what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger". The past few days, having all four of my children home has been wonderful and exhausting. Old patterns of disregard and disrespect have tried to creep back in and I recognized it as just that.
I have two choices here, I can be secretly hurt and hide my tears and shove it all deep inside or I can stand up for myself, say it is unacceptable and show my children I am no longer a door mat for anyone....and I mean anyone!
I adore my children, they are brilliant, loving, caring, kind kids who treat people with love and respect.... except me. I don't know if it's because they learned from watching their father, I allowed it because I was never strong enough to stand for myself or because they know I will love them unconditionally and so frustration from the rest of the world flies straight at me. Maybe it's both, all I know is that it must stop.
People must treat those they care for the most with the upmost respect and love, admiration and care. I included, seem to treat those closest to me with the least amount of dignity. It's sad and wrong, for we only have this one life to love and cherish. We only have a few who live intimately with us and those are the ones who we must be hold to a higher platform of love.
It's nice to feel so strong and know that I am doing what is best for me. It is a wonderful thing to mean it when someone ask how I am and I can proudly say that I am great. I won't allow myself to feel down and sad when I have the power within me to stand tall for myself.
Stand tall for yourself, find your courage to no longer be a door mat and know you are enough.
I have two choices here, I can be secretly hurt and hide my tears and shove it all deep inside or I can stand up for myself, say it is unacceptable and show my children I am no longer a door mat for anyone....and I mean anyone!
I adore my children, they are brilliant, loving, caring, kind kids who treat people with love and respect.... except me. I don't know if it's because they learned from watching their father, I allowed it because I was never strong enough to stand for myself or because they know I will love them unconditionally and so frustration from the rest of the world flies straight at me. Maybe it's both, all I know is that it must stop.
People must treat those they care for the most with the upmost respect and love, admiration and care. I included, seem to treat those closest to me with the least amount of dignity. It's sad and wrong, for we only have this one life to love and cherish. We only have a few who live intimately with us and those are the ones who we must be hold to a higher platform of love.
It's nice to feel so strong and know that I am doing what is best for me. It is a wonderful thing to mean it when someone ask how I am and I can proudly say that I am great. I won't allow myself to feel down and sad when I have the power within me to stand tall for myself.
Stand tall for yourself, find your courage to no longer be a door mat and know you are enough.
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