Love, Peace, Joy and Hope

The alarm wakens me at 5:30am, I hit the phone alarm and close my eyes for a few minutes before I remember that it is Christmas morning and Santa was too tired to stay up late to put out the gifts, so I jump out of bed and begin my day.    The gifts are neatly placed around the tree, coffee has to be consumed before I begin the stockings, it's a must.   My cappuccino is made and the warmth fills my body and soul, coffee is and always will be my best friend.  I fill the stockings, hang them on the fireplace and begin making our traditional Christmas morning breakfast.   The breads are in the oven, wonderful smells fill the air, one child is awake and I know, this is going to be a good day.    The ex comes in, wakes the other three who were still snug in their beds and we begin our Christmas celebration.   Our oldest reads the story of Jesus' birth and the presents start to be unwrapped.    With mimosa in hand, love in the home, I cherish this peace filled day.....life is so good.

I have so many things to be grateful for this day, every day, I have been given a gift of open eyes and heart and I am never going to take it for granted.   For the first time in forever, I am so at ease and so at peace with myself and with the world.   I have all I need under my roof, 4 healthy beautiful children whom I will always know were my gifts from God.   I don't need material things, I have them and I have a heart overflowing with love, peace, joy and hope.

I am also grateful for J, his love was my light that opened me and showed me what was true.   This year has been the worst and by far the best.   Thank you for loving me and allowing me to love you