I will live life
I realized today that I'm not living life because I've been waiting for someone to live it with me. Things that I want to do, places I want to visit, goals I want to accomplish, items I want to check off my bucket list. What am I waiting for, hell to freeze over?
In 18 years of marriage, we never had a get away, just the two of us, that didn't involve a business meeting or two or five. Our honeymoon was spent with him on the phone for work, I understood, it wasn't his choice, yet it was far from mine. I've always dreamt of somewhere tropical, laying on the beach, frozen drink in hand, sitting next to my love, that's never happened. When I found someone who loved the idea, he said he didn't want to go without his son, he didn't think it would be fair. Even after 3 years of dating, still no romantic getaway, hell, no get aways at all (he did however go on 4 vacations with his son). So what am I waiting for, pigs to fly?
I love Christmas lights, love the sound of music playing in the background, crisp cold air, the smell of fire and the taste of a hot adult beverage on my lips, yet I haven't gone, I've been waiting. Waiting for what, someone to hold my hand?
This week, I'm buying myself a ticket and will walk through the lights at the Garden, I will go to AB and tour the beautiful display. I will smile and be happy and allow myself to feel the joy of the season.
2017 will be about living, not waiting to live. If I wait, I might miss out on life, I don't know if someone will live life with me, I don't know what tomorrow brings so I can't just keep waiting. Yes, I want what others have, I want to share my life with someone, with 'the one' but I don't know....I have to just be happy regardless. Life isnt promised, life isnt guaranteed, life might not be here tomorrow, so I have to live it now.
I will go somewhere tropical, I will take that romantic vacation with myself. I don't want to miss anymore of life. I deserve to live.
In 18 years of marriage, we never had a get away, just the two of us, that didn't involve a business meeting or two or five. Our honeymoon was spent with him on the phone for work, I understood, it wasn't his choice, yet it was far from mine. I've always dreamt of somewhere tropical, laying on the beach, frozen drink in hand, sitting next to my love, that's never happened. When I found someone who loved the idea, he said he didn't want to go without his son, he didn't think it would be fair. Even after 3 years of dating, still no romantic getaway, hell, no get aways at all (he did however go on 4 vacations with his son). So what am I waiting for, pigs to fly?
I love Christmas lights, love the sound of music playing in the background, crisp cold air, the smell of fire and the taste of a hot adult beverage on my lips, yet I haven't gone, I've been waiting. Waiting for what, someone to hold my hand?
This week, I'm buying myself a ticket and will walk through the lights at the Garden, I will go to AB and tour the beautiful display. I will smile and be happy and allow myself to feel the joy of the season.
2017 will be about living, not waiting to live. If I wait, I might miss out on life, I don't know if someone will live life with me, I don't know what tomorrow brings so I can't just keep waiting. Yes, I want what others have, I want to share my life with someone, with 'the one' but I don't know....I have to just be happy regardless. Life isnt promised, life isnt guaranteed, life might not be here tomorrow, so I have to live it now.
I will go somewhere tropical, I will take that romantic vacation with myself. I don't want to miss anymore of life. I deserve to live.