Shame and Vulnerability
Learning to love yourself is a must so you can love others. I have learned that you cannot fully give of yourself to someone else if you are hiding away a part of you, that part that isn't loved fully by your own self
Shame and vulnerability are my lessons for the week. Discovering that my shame has caused anger, depression, lack of self worth, the essence of "I'm not good enough". If I truly feel that I am not good enough, then how is someone else going to believe it? They can see my worth, they can tell me that I am worthy, that I am good enough yet until I see it, until I begin to believe it, then I cannot give completely of myself
This has been a really hard fact to face. I thought I was giving all of the love I had but I was only giving out to others what I was giving to myself, in reality, that wasn't much.
I vocalized my love, I spoke about that the other day, how the words and the actions didn't match.....now I understand and recognize why. The shame in this alone is enough to make me want to hide in a hole forever. Yet I can't, I have to accept my actions, or lack of, call it by name and change it. I cannot be angry with myself, you can only do what you know until you know better.
This is where vulnerability comes into play I have to allow myself to be vulnerable not only to others but to myself.
I need to allow my own heart to be wide open to me, to feel the love without fear, to feel the love without judgement and to feel the love, with acceptance.
Next week is Valentine's Day, who better to be my Valentine than me ❤
Shame and vulnerability are my lessons for the week. Discovering that my shame has caused anger, depression, lack of self worth, the essence of "I'm not good enough". If I truly feel that I am not good enough, then how is someone else going to believe it? They can see my worth, they can tell me that I am worthy, that I am good enough yet until I see it, until I begin to believe it, then I cannot give completely of myself
This has been a really hard fact to face. I thought I was giving all of the love I had but I was only giving out to others what I was giving to myself, in reality, that wasn't much.
I vocalized my love, I spoke about that the other day, how the words and the actions didn't match.....now I understand and recognize why. The shame in this alone is enough to make me want to hide in a hole forever. Yet I can't, I have to accept my actions, or lack of, call it by name and change it. I cannot be angry with myself, you can only do what you know until you know better.
This is where vulnerability comes into play I have to allow myself to be vulnerable not only to others but to myself.
I need to allow my own heart to be wide open to me, to feel the love without fear, to feel the love without judgement and to feel the love, with acceptance.
Next week is Valentine's Day, who better to be my Valentine than me ❤
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