Personal Growth Plan
I heard someone speaking the other day and they mentioned having a personal growth plan, what a novel idea I thought, I think that's what I need to do. Over the past few days I have thought about it with true intention to figure out how I would like to see myself grow. I was surprised by what I discovered
NEEDINESS~ I don't want to be needy, it's something that I have been, probably my whole life. Needing someone to fix it for me, needing someone to make me happy, needing someone to tell me what I should do, needing someone to validate me, needing someone to tell me that I'm worth it. I'm discovering that I don't need anyone except myself. So I think I might be able to check that one off my personal growth plan.
NEGATIVITY ~ I don't think that I realized how negative I was until I started playing conversations back in my head. Oy, it's a wonder people wanted to hang with me at all. I've been around negative recently and to be honest, it sucked. I could feel it bringing me down, pulling me to the edge and it made me uncomfortable. Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments of negativity but they are less and less everyday. So being negative can be checked off my list too.
SELF-PITY~ This is a big one, one I've touched on here before, feeling like no one understood me, no one knows all I've been through, just always feeling sorry for myself. What a drain!!! I will be honest and admit I catch my thoughts going there occasionally and as soon as I recognize it, I stop it dead in it's tracks. Check please!!
One thing I've been very mindful of is to not speak self-pity and negativity over myself. When I speak aloud, it is positive, hopeful and with respect to myself and others. It's amazing how much less energy this takes than negative, self doubt and self pity. I can let myself feel sad, allow it to have its place and I am able to release it. Same with anxiety, fear, anger.....all just feelings that don't have a permanent residence in my being.
HOPE~ My hope has grown substantially over the past month, hope for better relationship with myself, hope that I'll be a better friends, hope that I have so much more to offer than I realized, hope that tomorrow I'll be blessed too begin, again and make it even better than today.
FAITH ~ Faith in myself, faith in mankind, faith in tomorrow and faith in God. These things are growing deep inside of me, I can see it when I look in the mirror, a light is starting to shine .
EMPATHY~ I'm learning what empathy is and is not , what is says and doesn't say, what it does and doesn't do for others. Sadly, some of us have to learn how to be empathetic, what seems so natural to some, is a struggle for others. I heard the other day that white middle-class Christians are the ones with the least amount of empathy because they were taught that their way was the only way. Because of this, you don't understand the concept of empathy and putting yourself into someone else's shoes. That statement scared the hell out of me. Do you know how many white middle-class Christians there are in this world? Well, I'm learning how to be empathetic so that one,sooner than later, will be checked off my list.
GIVING~ I want to give more than I receive, I'm not talking about gifts either. I want to give more love than I receive. I want to build up others more than they build me up. I want to Phil someone Elsa's emotional tank more than they fill mine. I want to inspire, I want to encourage, I want someone to look at me and say "because of what she gave me...."
CONFIDENCE~ ✔✔ After Tuesday, I know where my confidence level is and I am damn proud of it
MINDFULNESS ~ I am so lucky that I am able to take a 6 week mindfulness course. The things that I am learning are gold. I'm learning that I have control over my own mind, I have control over my thoughts, I have control over my emotions, I have control over my reactions. I think this is key to where I am today. Mindfulness has helped me with my personal growth plan in such an amazing way.
I can say today, with complete transparency, I am good.!! I am happy. I am loved. And I am more than enough.
NEEDINESS~ I don't want to be needy, it's something that I have been, probably my whole life. Needing someone to fix it for me, needing someone to make me happy, needing someone to tell me what I should do, needing someone to validate me, needing someone to tell me that I'm worth it. I'm discovering that I don't need anyone except myself. So I think I might be able to check that one off my personal growth plan.
NEGATIVITY ~ I don't think that I realized how negative I was until I started playing conversations back in my head. Oy, it's a wonder people wanted to hang with me at all. I've been around negative recently and to be honest, it sucked. I could feel it bringing me down, pulling me to the edge and it made me uncomfortable. Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments of negativity but they are less and less everyday. So being negative can be checked off my list too.
SELF-PITY~ This is a big one, one I've touched on here before, feeling like no one understood me, no one knows all I've been through, just always feeling sorry for myself. What a drain!!! I will be honest and admit I catch my thoughts going there occasionally and as soon as I recognize it, I stop it dead in it's tracks. Check please!!
One thing I've been very mindful of is to not speak self-pity and negativity over myself. When I speak aloud, it is positive, hopeful and with respect to myself and others. It's amazing how much less energy this takes than negative, self doubt and self pity. I can let myself feel sad, allow it to have its place and I am able to release it. Same with anxiety, fear, anger.....all just feelings that don't have a permanent residence in my being.
HOPE~ My hope has grown substantially over the past month, hope for better relationship with myself, hope that I'll be a better friends, hope that I have so much more to offer than I realized, hope that tomorrow I'll be blessed too begin, again and make it even better than today.
FAITH ~ Faith in myself, faith in mankind, faith in tomorrow and faith in God. These things are growing deep inside of me, I can see it when I look in the mirror, a light is starting to shine .
EMPATHY~ I'm learning what empathy is and is not , what is says and doesn't say, what it does and doesn't do for others. Sadly, some of us have to learn how to be empathetic, what seems so natural to some, is a struggle for others. I heard the other day that white middle-class Christians are the ones with the least amount of empathy because they were taught that their way was the only way. Because of this, you don't understand the concept of empathy and putting yourself into someone else's shoes. That statement scared the hell out of me. Do you know how many white middle-class Christians there are in this world? Well, I'm learning how to be empathetic so that one,sooner than later, will be checked off my list.
GIVING~ I want to give more than I receive, I'm not talking about gifts either. I want to give more love than I receive. I want to build up others more than they build me up. I want to Phil someone Elsa's emotional tank more than they fill mine. I want to inspire, I want to encourage, I want someone to look at me and say "because of what she gave me...."
CONFIDENCE~ ✔✔ After Tuesday, I know where my confidence level is and I am damn proud of it
MINDFULNESS ~ I am so lucky that I am able to take a 6 week mindfulness course. The things that I am learning are gold. I'm learning that I have control over my own mind, I have control over my thoughts, I have control over my emotions, I have control over my reactions. I think this is key to where I am today. Mindfulness has helped me with my personal growth plan in such an amazing way.
I can say today, with complete transparency, I am good.!! I am happy. I am loved. And I am more than enough.
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