I'm living.
Tonight I did a first. I booked a trip with someone who wasn't related to me. I am heading to Vegas with a girlfriend of mine, because we can. 3 days spent shopping, eating, hiking the Grand Canyon and being us. She asked who wanted to go and I said ME! I am living, I'm not going to stop moving forward. I have so much life ahead of me and I refuse to not live every moment.
My life isnt what I wanted at 47. I didn't want to be divorced, having to share my children and only being with them half of the time. I never wanted to go to bed alone and wake up by myself but this is how my life is now and so I must make a choice, be sad and feel sorry for myself or be happy and grateful that I have friends and family who support me and love me, for me.
I honestly don't know of anyone whose life has turned out as they had envisioned, no one's life is perfect, very few are living how they wanted yet we are here and we must make the best of it. I don't want to go another day just existing , just breathing and just being ok. I want to smile and laugh, I want to sing and dance, I want to live and love.......so I will. If I have to do it alone, for now, I will and I will be better for it. I know I won't be alone forever. I know that I deserve to be loved and cherished. I know that I am someone who has the world to offer and one day, someone will want to lasso the moon for me. I know this, because I want this, when I am ready, it'll happen and for me to be ready, I have to learn to live.
My life isnt what I wanted at 47. I didn't want to be divorced, having to share my children and only being with them half of the time. I never wanted to go to bed alone and wake up by myself but this is how my life is now and so I must make a choice, be sad and feel sorry for myself or be happy and grateful that I have friends and family who support me and love me, for me.
I honestly don't know of anyone whose life has turned out as they had envisioned, no one's life is perfect, very few are living how they wanted yet we are here and we must make the best of it. I don't want to go another day just existing , just breathing and just being ok. I want to smile and laugh, I want to sing and dance, I want to live and love.......so I will. If I have to do it alone, for now, I will and I will be better for it. I know I won't be alone forever. I know that I deserve to be loved and cherished. I know that I am someone who has the world to offer and one day, someone will want to lasso the moon for me. I know this, because I want this, when I am ready, it'll happen and for me to be ready, I have to learn to live.
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