My storm
A great enlightenment came upon me this morning as I was reading through emails, my meditations and of course downing my coffee, one that made me smile and chuckle to myself. (Yes, I did audibly chuckle).
It seems as though my devotionals, meditations, blogs I read, emails I receive, all have a theme to be uplifting and inspirational. The theme is making it through the storm, living through trials, learning to carry the weight of hard times and not letting it get you. These are all tremendous reads, all have helped me, guided me, spoke clearly to me, yet this morning as I was reading, it struck me.....I'M NOT IN A STORM!!
My hard times, for now, have passed, I'm living life in a tranquil state. I'm not with the man I love, yet it's ok, he is still my best friend. My house isn't selling (yes, I know its only been 13 days, give it time big girl), yet I'm not worried. I haven't found a house to buy, I will when the right time is here. These things a year ago, hell, 4 months ago would've sent me into a worried state of nerves and fear, today though, I'm just grateful I woke up.
I've been fighting the seas, the storms tossing and drowning me because I just couldn't relax. The waters are still rough but this storm has passed and I am relaxed, floating along with the tide. Mentally, emotionally and spiritually ready for when a storm does find me, I know how to breathe through it and not let it overtake me.
I have amazing support, my cheerleaders are always by my side, my children (even though they drive me bananas, they are my biggest fans), my girl friends, my family, friends and J. A year ago, I felt so alone, abandoned and hurt, the difference now is that I see that they were there all along, I just couldn't see through my storm because I was looking back instead of forward.
It seems as though my devotionals, meditations, blogs I read, emails I receive, all have a theme to be uplifting and inspirational. The theme is making it through the storm, living through trials, learning to carry the weight of hard times and not letting it get you. These are all tremendous reads, all have helped me, guided me, spoke clearly to me, yet this morning as I was reading, it struck me.....I'M NOT IN A STORM!!
My hard times, for now, have passed, I'm living life in a tranquil state. I'm not with the man I love, yet it's ok, he is still my best friend. My house isn't selling (yes, I know its only been 13 days, give it time big girl), yet I'm not worried. I haven't found a house to buy, I will when the right time is here. These things a year ago, hell, 4 months ago would've sent me into a worried state of nerves and fear, today though, I'm just grateful I woke up.
I've been fighting the seas, the storms tossing and drowning me because I just couldn't relax. The waters are still rough but this storm has passed and I am relaxed, floating along with the tide. Mentally, emotionally and spiritually ready for when a storm does find me, I know how to breathe through it and not let it overtake me.
I have amazing support, my cheerleaders are always by my side, my children (even though they drive me bananas, they are my biggest fans), my girl friends, my family, friends and J. A year ago, I felt so alone, abandoned and hurt, the difference now is that I see that they were there all along, I just couldn't see through my storm because I was looking back instead of forward.
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