The New Norm
I was taught that loving yourself was selfish, wrong, even sinful. It's not, it is healthy, it is rewarding and it is necessary. Loving yourself doesn't mean you are selfish, actually, it's kind of selfless. When you finally learn to love yourself, you have the ability to love others in a way that is free of conditions.
When you love yourself, you are able to put yourself into someone else's shoes, able to see their heart, their hurts, their needs. Empathy suddenly becomes more than a foreign word, it becomes a part of you. You can put someone else's wants above yours without hesitation, without worry, instead full of love and desire for them to be well.
My heart aches, no doubt about that, loving myself doesn't take away the sadness I feel when I think about not being with the one I love, yet, it's a peaceful ache. I know that I can be strong, hell, I've been strong all of my life. This strength, however, is different, it's not out of survival , it's out of love. It's out of faith, hope, trust, things I always wished for but never truly felt.
Someone told me that I give God too much credit, that I am the one who has done the work and learned to become who I am. Yes, it is true, I did do the work. I cried, I screamed, I read, I searched, I worked my ass off to be where I am today. I did it, it wasn't handed to me, it wasn't sent from heaven like manna from above, I strived and I succeeded. Yet without my faith in God, in a higher power, in the universe, I wouldn't have found that strength in myself to keep going, to find the love I now feel for myself. I need to believe in God, it is a part of who I am. God is all things, God is the earth, the sky, He is in us and around us, each one of us is God. I cannot imagine living life without that belief, without the strength believing gives me.
Today, I woke with peace, it seems to be a new norm for me and I love it. I pray that one day, you find that peace, more than anything I want you to feel in harmony with life.
When you love yourself, you are able to put yourself into someone else's shoes, able to see their heart, their hurts, their needs. Empathy suddenly becomes more than a foreign word, it becomes a part of you. You can put someone else's wants above yours without hesitation, without worry, instead full of love and desire for them to be well.
My heart aches, no doubt about that, loving myself doesn't take away the sadness I feel when I think about not being with the one I love, yet, it's a peaceful ache. I know that I can be strong, hell, I've been strong all of my life. This strength, however, is different, it's not out of survival , it's out of love. It's out of faith, hope, trust, things I always wished for but never truly felt.
Someone told me that I give God too much credit, that I am the one who has done the work and learned to become who I am. Yes, it is true, I did do the work. I cried, I screamed, I read, I searched, I worked my ass off to be where I am today. I did it, it wasn't handed to me, it wasn't sent from heaven like manna from above, I strived and I succeeded. Yet without my faith in God, in a higher power, in the universe, I wouldn't have found that strength in myself to keep going, to find the love I now feel for myself. I need to believe in God, it is a part of who I am. God is all things, God is the earth, the sky, He is in us and around us, each one of us is God. I cannot imagine living life without that belief, without the strength believing gives me.
Today, I woke with peace, it seems to be a new norm for me and I love it. I pray that one day, you find that peace, more than anything I want you to feel in harmony with life.
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