Giving Credit Where Credit Is Due

I've been told I'm one of the most resilient woman he has known, and I am.  I fall and I get right back up.  My heart breaks, it mends and I love deeper the next time.  It isn't because I'm strong, its because my faith in God is strong.  God doesn't leave us, He doesn't throw life at us and walk away.  He allows us to look at the mess we have right in front of us and He allows our eyes to see what we need to do to change.  God doesn't change us, He expects us to do the work but until we are strong enough to see, we are stuck in the crap that lays at our feet.

Someone told me once that I give God too much credit for how far I've come, I don't believe that is such a thing.  If anything, I didn't give God the true credit.  I take responsibility for my mistakes, my poor choices and for my lack of self worth but I give God the credit for opening my eyes to see myself how He sees me.  I give God credit for giving me the strength to get out of bed on the days that I thought I didn't want to live.  I give God credit for placing people in my life who would be instrumental in my move forward.   I give God credit for closing the doors that I thought I didn't want closed and I give God credit for the doors He will open that will lead me to a life, a love and a future that is beyond my wildest dreams.

Someone elses lack of faith took a toll on mine when sadly, it should've been the other way around.  I carry pain for this, not for myself yet for someone who I could've lifted up and shown God's love.  I am here today because God has made me one of the strongest women there is and I will share what I have been given from this day on.

I choose to thank God for His love and grace because without it, I would have given up long ago.