Right now is the perfect time
Late last night, I learned of the passing of a longtime friend of mine. Suzette was always the life of wherever she went. She was loud, funny, flirty and so sweet. I don't remember a time when she was anything other than full of life and then she got married and had children.
Like many of us, life was put on hold while her family was put first. She gave up a nursing career, stayed at home to raise two beautiful daughters and was their biggest fan. As they grew older, she and her husband grew apart. They decided a few years ago to do what was best for all of them and divorce on very amicable terms.
Suzette had told me that she and her husband were splitting soon after I had confided in her about my own upcoming divorce. She was happy to find someone who understood the position she was in of loving her husband as a friend but no longer being able to remain married. We spent a lot of time talking about how we wanted life to be for ourselves, for our ex husbands and mostly for our children.
We both wanted to find the love that we dreamt of, love that would be a role model for our kids. A love for ourselves that growing up in the UPC was never taught. Suzette did just that. She went back to work as a nurse, started dating again and came home more frequently to spend time with her parents, friends and family. We went to shows, to dinner, out with friends, I saw her more than I did my friends who lived in the same city as myself. She started living, she fell in love with life all over again.
Suzette spent the last year and a half fighting for her life, cancer is a fucking bitch. My friend didn't get to find the man she was looking for, didn't get to go to most places she'd always wanted to visit, but she lived her best until her last breath.
I don't want to wait until it's too late, I'm going to live to my fullest now. I'm going to see the world, enjoy my friends, love with every ounce I have in me. I'm going to live each moment like it is my last. I'm not going to wait until the perfect time because there is no perfect time like right now.
Suzette, I always loved being your short friend, you always made me feel so tall.
God speed
Like many of us, life was put on hold while her family was put first. She gave up a nursing career, stayed at home to raise two beautiful daughters and was their biggest fan. As they grew older, she and her husband grew apart. They decided a few years ago to do what was best for all of them and divorce on very amicable terms.
Suzette had told me that she and her husband were splitting soon after I had confided in her about my own upcoming divorce. She was happy to find someone who understood the position she was in of loving her husband as a friend but no longer being able to remain married. We spent a lot of time talking about how we wanted life to be for ourselves, for our ex husbands and mostly for our children.
We both wanted to find the love that we dreamt of, love that would be a role model for our kids. A love for ourselves that growing up in the UPC was never taught. Suzette did just that. She went back to work as a nurse, started dating again and came home more frequently to spend time with her parents, friends and family. We went to shows, to dinner, out with friends, I saw her more than I did my friends who lived in the same city as myself. She started living, she fell in love with life all over again.
Suzette spent the last year and a half fighting for her life, cancer is a fucking bitch. My friend didn't get to find the man she was looking for, didn't get to go to most places she'd always wanted to visit, but she lived her best until her last breath.
I don't want to wait until it's too late, I'm going to live to my fullest now. I'm going to see the world, enjoy my friends, love with every ounce I have in me. I'm going to live each moment like it is my last. I'm not going to wait until the perfect time because there is no perfect time like right now.
Suzette, I always loved being your short friend, you always made me feel so tall.
God speed
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