I walked away

My journey of being enough took a new twist this morning. As I was journaling, the realization came over me that perhaps I've had it backwards this whole time, perhaps it's not me who hasn't been enough but others. As I was writing my experiences down, one common thread kept showing up, I am the one who walked away.  I have always claimed that I wasn't enough, I wasn't good enough, I wasn't pretty enough, I wasn't smart enough and so they couldn't love me the way I needed. The truth is I was right, they couldn't love me the way that I needed, the way that I wanted, the way that I desired but it wasn't because I wasn't enough.....  it's because they couldn't be enough for me.  

I walked away.    For whatever reason I convinced myself that it was because I wasn't good enough but I WALKED AWAY. I did it because deep down inside of me I must've known I deserved more. Deep down inside of me I knew there was someone out there who was enough for me and I was enough for him.  

I realized this morning that I'm actually not afraid to be alone.  If I were, all I had to do was make a call, there is someone out there who has said he wants to spend his life with me....someone I walked away from because he isn't enough.  So my waiting isn't out of fear of being alone, to be honest, over the past year I've questioned that myself.  My waiting is because I found the one that is enough.   I have found the one who I know I don't want to walk away from.  

I Am Enough and So Is He.   We will make it