It's Only Gonna Get Better. ✌
You told me that you were afraid that if we broke up, I would become who I (and you) wanted me to be and that you wouldn't get to be a part of it, that you would miss out on the best thing of your life. Don't worry, I didn't, you haven't missed out on who you thought I would become, not even who I wanted to become.....because I have become so much more.
So many times over the past year, truthfully, over the past 3 years, I have thought the race was finished, only to realize it wasn't the finish line, but just a mile marker. Just as soon as I thought I was woke, I would wake again. 3 years into the healing of my childhood, my teenage years, my early 20s, I see now that this weekend road trip is really a life long journey. To be honest, I love the thought of continuing to grow though out my life . To know that who I am today will only move me into a better me tomorrow.
There has been no magic words, no quick fix, only waking up every day and opening myself to new experiences, new friends, new ideas and new ways. It is hard work, it's not easy to face your fears, your demons and your own self but it has been worth it.
In Aug I start on a new path, one that has my name written all over it and I am so excited to share it with those who don't need me to become someone to love me, they have loved me all along.
Peace
So many times over the past year, truthfully, over the past 3 years, I have thought the race was finished, only to realize it wasn't the finish line, but just a mile marker. Just as soon as I thought I was woke, I would wake again. 3 years into the healing of my childhood, my teenage years, my early 20s, I see now that this weekend road trip is really a life long journey. To be honest, I love the thought of continuing to grow though out my life . To know that who I am today will only move me into a better me tomorrow.
There has been no magic words, no quick fix, only waking up every day and opening myself to new experiences, new friends, new ideas and new ways. It is hard work, it's not easy to face your fears, your demons and your own self but it has been worth it.
In Aug I start on a new path, one that has my name written all over it and I am so excited to share it with those who don't need me to become someone to love me, they have loved me all along.
Peace
Absolutely love!
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