Seeking Life

We are like worker ants, we have a path that society sets for us and we follow it, morning noon and night.  Wake, eat, work, sleep just to start all over again the next day.  We sit meekly by the side waiting for life to happen to us, either afraid of what others will think, afraid of what we might miss or even, afraid of what we might find, reluctant to give up our daily routine for adventure and life.   As kids, we look forward to adulthood, thinking of the freedom that awaits, not realizing that to have that freedom, you must also have courage.

Courage to face your fears.  Courage to say no.   Courage to know your dreams.  Courage to love yourself .   Courage to be different.  Courage to say I am worth it.  Courage to try and courage to sometimes fail. Courage to take that first step.

I have a friend M who is on a month long adventure, planning only a few days at a time, allowing life to just take him where it wants him to go.  Hearing the excitement in his voice, listening to the possibilities of the places he might end up have ignited a small flame in me.  I don't want to meekly sit and wait, I want to go in search of true living.  Whether it's an actual physical journey like M or a spiritual odyssey, a mental or emotional exploration, isn't it time we all discover our own path and live as we were meant to?!

I have been on my journey of self discovery for over 3 years, the person who started this blog almost 2 years ago is a shadow of who I am today.   I have grown so much yet I want to unearth even more of who I am meant to be.  Daily, I search for signs of my own identity and my own path to follow.   I'm excited that I have finally released what I thought I wanted and accepted what God has chosen for me, a life lived to help others,  a life filled with the love of my children, family and friends.  A life that I am no longer afraid to live.